Because Erika Told Me To: It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

My very dear friend Jessie moved to California in the wee hours of the morning today. It sucks. I really feel like someone should have told me how hard it is to be an adult and pay bills and have the people you love die and have other people you love move away to another state. Maybe people did tell me this but I thought they were lying or that I knew everything because I was 15 or 19 or 23 and that those things would never happen to me. My bills would get paid by magic, people would live forever and stay within a five mile radius of me for my whole life.

Unfortunately, that is not how life has panned out as evidenced by how Jessie and I stood awkwardly in the parking lot of her condo complex last night attempting to say goodbye while her dog whined and ran in circles around our legs, peeing on every bush he could reach, as I bawled, somewhat hysterically.

All day today I've had the Boyz II Men song "It's so Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday" stuck in my head. My friend Paige would insist that Boyz II Men songs are the only appropriate songs for any circumstance one might find herself in, and today I would agree with her. The other 364 days of the year, maybe not so much. I realize it's a breakup song and that Jessie and I are not breaking up, just re-calibrating our friendship to span multiple states, but it seems like the right song for today.

My smart phone could probably figure out how to play the song while you're reading this blog and looking at the following pictures, but I'm not that smart, so you'll get what you get.

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

Pretending to be nerds, but if you knew how obsessed we are with Battlestar Galactica, you'd realize we really are.

I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

Not so hard to say goodbye to these hairstyles, though.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.

5K's, triathlons, hikes up the Poudre. We've gone a lot of miles together.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

Charlie wanted me to mention that he's really going to miss Jake, mostly Jake's giant bed that he would "borrow" whenever Jake came to visit. I told Jake last night that he needs to live for another year so I can see him whenever I make it out to CA. He's an old man dog.